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    Post by Soma on Thu Jun 18, 2020 7:10 pm

    I'm so sorry
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    Post by Nick on Thu Jun 18, 2020 7:56 pm

    That is awful and I’m so sorry.
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    Post by undo on Fri Jun 19, 2020 1:15 pm

    zappo that sucks and I'm really sorry... I guess saying that you and your family need to stick together right now is super obvious but also ignores the reality of the situation that makes that so challenging.

    Stay strong!
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    Post by Duff... on Fri Jun 19, 2020 11:51 pm

    Fuck.
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    Post by WP64 on Sat Jun 20, 2020 1:19 am

    Don't know what to say other than really, really sorry. I just watched my Dad go through that with his brother and it was really tough on him and the whole family. Hoping for a better result for you and yours.
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    Post by zappo on Wed Jun 24, 2020 5:02 pm

    After an emergency surgery on what I think might've been Sunday afternoon (it all runs together by now) to remove the left half of her skull to relieve the pressure on her brain, she was placed into a medically induced coma.  Her condition deteriorated rapidly, from there.  The doctors at that point started using phrases like "dignified death."  Tomorrow afternoon, she will be taken off of life support.  Only one person will be allowed in, so at least her father will be with her.  For various "family stuff" reasons that I'd rather not get into in a public post, the fact that the decision for him to be the one was reached cordially and with the consent of both parents makes this a particularly heartrending way for them to spend their last time together.  She had just turned 25 and started a business.  This cannot be real, and yet it is.  She never woke up, after the crash, and one of the several billion things that I cannot stop thinking about is how the last moments of her waking life were obviously of sheer terror.
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    Post by Duff... on Wed Jun 24, 2020 10:23 pm

    I'm really sorry, man.
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    Post by Soma on Wed Jun 24, 2020 10:27 pm

    horrible, my condolences
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    Post by WP64 on Thu Jun 25, 2020 5:07 pm

    Really, really sorry Zappo. Crying or Very sad
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    Post by coyote on Thu Jun 25, 2020 9:05 pm

    My condolences zappo.
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    Post by jesus jones on Fri Jun 26, 2020 2:37 pm

    i'm so sorry, zappo. sending you lots of love
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    Post by Michael K. on Fri Jun 26, 2020 4:48 pm

    goddamn, Zappo. I'm sorry for the grief you all are experiencing right now, especially facing the thoughts about her last moments.
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    Post by zappo on Fri Jun 26, 2020 5:49 pm

    I greatly appreciate y'all's very kind words. I feel and appreciate them very fucking deeply. Thank you. But if you aren't in the market for deeply and maddeningly conflicting emotions, do not click through.

    Spoiler:
    Like 90 minutes after making that post, something both infuriating and inspiring happened. I've probably been this angry, before, but I don't know if I've ever been angrier. I suddenly got an explosion of messages from family in AZ saying that, lol, turns out the hospital accidentally told us that this was what they wanted to do before the team had actually gotten together to make this recommendation. They "just assumed," and staff went ahead with working out arrangements and timing and so forth (for the end of life-support, I mean) with her parents. After that decision had been made, the entire family had been told about it, and grieving (as y'all saw) had already started...then the team of doctors actually got together to decide whether or not they thought they wanted to do what we had already been told was going to be done.

    And it turns out that what they wanted to do (which is now happening) is NOT what we had been told. Now, it's not looking like some kind of miracle. But it doesn't involve my cousin being dead, either. What they're doing is slowly bringing her out of her medically induced coma, over the course of roughly five days, and then doing a comprehensive check of all of her vitals and so forth to see what happens. They have stressed that her survival, let alone recovery, would take a pretty big miracle. It's not something that we should expect. But, of course, a one-in-a-trillion shot is much better than a straight-up zero-percent chance. So we'll take it. I don't expect her to survive. To be honest, I never did. But it's somewhat (ie, inestimably) comforting to know that we're going to be positive about what happens next, no matter how it goes, rather than forever curious about what could have happened if we'd given it a shot.

    What I'm so angry about is that these stupid motherfuckers put us through these horrible experiences for absolutely no reason. Like, I had to tell my wailing grandmother that her niece was going to die, the next afternoon, and that there just wasn't anything else to be done. Clearly, this was infinitely less excruciating for my grandmother (or myself) than for my cousin's fucking estranged parents. Jesus Christ. Nothing works. No systems work. None. They function, at times, sure. But that's only owing to luck or accident. Utterly terrifying and baffling and infuriating. Burn Arizona to the ground, for fuck's sake.
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    Post by zappo on Fri Jun 26, 2020 5:50 pm

    jesus jones wrote:i'm so sorry, zappo. sending you lots of love

    I forgot to mention that I received your tapes in the mail. Thank you! A more fitting post for the "Crushing It" thread, obviously, but I'm already here!
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    Post by Nick on Wed Jul 01, 2020 4:44 pm

    On Sunday I noticed some swelling bumps/lesions across my left brow and they really hurt. It got worse on Monday so I went to the dermatologist. He diagnosed it as an infected pimple, gave me 3 steroid shots in the face & prescribed antibiotics.

    On Tuesday the pain was growing and the swelling was spreading. This morning the pain was so bad I couldn’t sleep & was wandering around my house at 3AM. The lesions had only gotten worse & spread so I went to the ER. My left eye was swollen 75% shut.

    The ER doc diagnosed me with Shingles. Gave me 3 more prescriptions as well & this totally sucks. I’m not at all equating it with other posts in this thread but it is definitely some shit.
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    Post by jesus jones on Wed Jul 01, 2020 7:17 pm

    zappo wrote:
    jesus jones wrote:i'm so sorry, zappo. sending you lots of love

    I forgot to mention that I received your tapes in the mail.  Thank you!  A more fitting post for the "Crushing It" thread, obviously, but I'm already here!
    oh good, glad they made it! i hope they bring you a small amount of joy and peace.
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    Post by Duff... on Wed Jul 01, 2020 7:33 pm

    Started my day yesterday by passing the fuck out so that's cool.
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    Post by Duff... on Thu Jul 02, 2020 12:07 am

    That fucking sucks, Nick, and I can't help but feel it's a matter of when I end up with shingles.

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